When you approach the daily writing
session or, as occasional warm-up, these random observations, there are words
but no narrative glue. You begin
reaching into the narrative equivalent of the spaces between the cushions of a
sofa or easy chair, searching for another metaphor, the small change of
attitude, left behind from some other transaction during the day.
In this case, the equation does
balance in an arithmetical if not metaphoric way. If the well is dry so far as writing is
concerned, the reason is clear. You’ve
brought nothing to it.
You find the well dry because you
have brought no energy to the process, not the energy of addled and pent-up
frustration, not the drive of outright displeasure or anger, not the sublime,
soaring sensation of enthusiasm or pleasure, not the feelings of hunger you
associate with curiosity, and for a certainty, not the impish, mirthful
exuberance of mischief.
The well will be dry as well if you
bring neither youth nor age nor middle age. There will be no sense of impatience or even
the fearful potential that the well is dry because the well is as leaky as a
knock-off raincoat of unknown provenance.
Most days, you are much like the
peddlers and drummers of old, carrying an array of wares with you, most
accommodating to any vagrant idea that comes by and wishes to take up a life
with you. A few yards of sarcasm here, a
ribbon of mirth there, and a make-up-your-mind flare of impatience when the
idea does not seem to know how it wishes to present itself.
There is a lingering flame of fear
at the thought you might on any given day resort to laundry list making or,
worse yet, dear diary, today I had lunch with the gang, took a nap, bought the
week’s groceries, browsed this week’s New
Yorker. All this and not a word of how you felt about
it or what the downstream consequences of such forms of record keeping would
have on your need to keep your feelings and vision alert.
There are empty wells all about you;
reference works and accounts of varying degrees of accuracy, but these wells
are factual. They cannot show you how to
feel; you have to show yourself how.
To be sure, there are full wells
about you, men, women, and young writers, producing the deft braids of
observation, understanding, and imaginative presentations of emotional
information to the point where you understand how daunting it is to communicate
such braids and at the same time how important it is to try.
In some ways, sitting to pursue
your work time at a project, only to discover the well has dried is like coming
home or to your workspace, only to find a complete stranger in your customary
place. This individual looks like you,
sounds somewhat as you do, but does not write like you, not in the least, and
yet this individual on occasion turns in copy that purports to be from you.
This is not a time for
politeness. Writing is not a time for
politeness, at least, not writing writing.
Google writing and Wikipedia writing and Yahoo writing are often direct,
straightforward, often fact checked with great purpose. But they are not writing writing; they have
no quirks or seething rancor or the giddiness of awl-sharp language and
emotional penetration, nor do they cast shadows on the walls of the inner
reader.
Coming to work empty-handed is only
a disaster if you let the emptiness talk you down from your purpose, which is
to believe enough in what you’re doing and the format in which you’re doing it
to lean on the horn if there are any slow, clotting words in the sentences
ahead of you.
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